Personal study notes

Friday, May 26, 2006
In another day or so a milestone on my Xanga will be there, 20,000 hits – I suspect it will be sometime late tomorrow or Sunday. If you happen to notice that you are that person, let me know. And again, I count myself so blessed to have so many wonderful friends in Xanga. I have learned so much, laughed a lot, and feel that I have been so enriched by knowing you. God is so good, and I am grateful that He led me here.

Beth Moore, in her study Believing God had us go back and divide our life into fifths and look for footprints of God in our past. When I did that study a few years ago, I could not find any place God was in the first fifth of my life. Yesterday, I am certain because of the Breaking Free study I had a big breakthrough. For those of you who do not know me, my testimony is on 3/24/06 the second entry. But during the Believing God study, I was unable to find exactly where God was in my early childhood, the rape of my father, the attempts on my life and other abuse made God seem remarkably absent.

Well, yesterday I was talking with Pastor Don’s wife, and we were discussing how God has our lives in His control. And one thing the Holy Spirit put into my mind is, that because my parents, both my mom and dad, were so awful, when I – in my rebellion-turned to the occult, I could not relate too well to the concept of god and goddess, the father and mother, mother earth, or any of the other deity pantheons. So God protected me from going fully into any of the occult paths, and he used what satan meant for bad, for my good. God protected me, even when I was so unfaithful to Him. I hope I explained that clearly enough. But I am so grateful to God that He kept me safe when I was making so many stupid decisions.

God is awesome, and I can’t wait to share today’s Bible study with you – Pastor Don taught it and it was thought provoking, but we have to celebrate Edward’s 16th Birthday. He chose hamburgers for dinner, and ice cream cake for his cake. We already let him open his presents because it is a rainy and raw day and one of his presents was a video we could watch as a family.

Hoping you are having a great Memorial Day weekend, I am looking forward to it, but there are so many things we have to do with the scouts, so it cuts into the relaxation. But they are important, one of which is marching in the Veterans’ Day parade. I think that is vital as a respect for those who served us in the services.

Heather

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About Heather Marsten

Welcome to Heather's Blog. I'm looking forward to meeting you and checking out your sites. I just moved about nine years of material over from another blog site, Xanga, who may close down mid-July. At first I was disappointed to make the move because I had a lifetime membership at Xanga and had to spend weeks transferring posts. But now I'm thrilled. Already I've met new bloggers and read many new websites. Blogging is a wonderful way to expand my horizons and garner new ideas. I'm a happily married mom of three young adults. My husband and I are proud to watch our children grow and venture out into the world. My daughter is still in college but my two sons have graduated. One has a job and the other just graduated and is in the process of finding a job in his field, physics. Anyone know of any jobs out there? I'm proud of our children and love watching them grow and mature. They've become fine, compassionate, and loving people. Empty nest? Nah, I'm too busy to let an empty nest bother me. Not enough hours in the day. My husband and I enjoy quiet time together and I have many interests to pursue - one of which is blogging :D I am a born-again believer and love God. As you read this blog, you will discover that Bible studies thrill me. There is so much wisdom contained between the covers of the Bible and I am fortunate to sit under the teachings of a remarkable pastor, Pastor Don Moore. Members of our church (Living Word Chapel in West Hurley, New York) are encouraged to teach and there are visiting pastors who stop by our church, I also study the Bible on my own and love sharing what I learn. One other passion is writing. My current work in process is a memoir. A scene from my memoir was published in a book called: Heavenly Company: Entertaining Angels Unaware - an anthology of angelic encounters compiled by Cecil Murphy. I'm hoping my memoir will encourage other survivors of abuse. I grew up in a home filled with abuse, including incest. For most of my life I was searching for something that would fill the void of not being loved by my parents. I tried many ways to find that love -- therapy, relationships, occult studies, and keeping my life so filled I had no way to think about my past. It was only when I discovered God that I was able to put the pieces of my life back together and walk forward in a joyous life. My nickname - wondering has changed from wondering where the heck God was in my life, to wondering what incredible adventure is going to happen next. I hope you enjoy my site. Please say hi, share some thoughts, and ask questions. I look forward to meeting you and checking out your sites. Have a blessed day. Heather
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