|Currently reading WHY? Trusting God When You Don’t Understand by Anne Graham Lotz.It makes some interesting points about trusting the hand of God even when you don’t experience it or see it. That God can help you soar over your problems, etc.
Beth Moore also had traumas that she had to overcome, Joyce Meyer, lots of spiritual leaders seem to have had these challenges.
One underlying factor in their lives though seems to be that they had God first, then the problems came up. And they had the basis of their relationship with God to lean on.
What troubles me, is (very selfishly) people in my situation, where the troubles were intense before I even really knew that God existed, when I was a child.
I know that troubles are tough no matter whether or not you believe in God, but why would God (who knows our complete lives before we were born), throw such a challenge on a child before they have any feet to stand on. I know that it took a long time for me to sort out things enough to ask God into my life, but I also know that there are many from similar situations to mine, some on Xanga, that have turned their backs on God, like I did for 40 years, only they won’t turn back to God.
Why would a loving God risk his relationship with his children by putting such obstacles in their path.
I don’t know if I am asking this question clearly or not. But sometimes when I read a book by whom I consider to be a very spiritual person and they talk about how their faith pulled them through the trial, it hurts, because I wasn’t given that faith by God first, before the fiery trials. Makes me wonder. Sorry for the pity party, but things are tough right now emotionally for me.